What is that supposed to really mean?
A couple of nights ago, I sang in a concert with the BYU University Chorale. That was a good experience, especially since I don't get a lot of chances to sing in a big choir.
Anyway, after the concert I was making my way out and was tapped on the back by a girl. She said something to the effect of: "Excuse me. I know this is really awkward. This is probably the last time I'll see you. I'm kind of weird and like watching people sing. But, I think you're adorable."
It was definitely a little unexpected. I wasn't sure how to respond, so I just thanked her and left.
There was a lot that ran through my mind about what to say. I thought about asking for her number or if she'd like to do something this weekend, especially since she was kind of cute. However, it was just such an ambiguous statement. Did she mean adorable like a little kid or something more? I really am not quite sure. How young I look usually causes me to question things like that. I may never know.
I tried to find out who she was later that night through Blackboard and Facebook, since it was kind of getting at me. I couldn't find her, though, so maybe she wasn't in the class, or was just watching from the audience. Oh well, I guess. At least it made my night a little better.
Let me know what you think.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Are We Making This Too Complicated?
This past weekend was LDS General Conference, and I really enjoyed it. Having the opportunity to get all that spiritual, wholesome enlightenment in one weekend is a great experience. I felt better and more optimistic Saturday night than I have in a long time.
One thing which was discussed a bit this time was the subject on marriage. Now, I don't really have that strong of an opinion on the subject. I'm not really all that close to getting married and don't feel too much need to hurry. Maybe that's wrong of me to feel that way. I don't know. Anyway, a lot of what was said was that we should be working to get married if we're at the right age, and it's not good if we're delaying it.
I've kind of thought about this a bit and have seen some discussion on the subject. I agree with some others that it seems so simple. It's like we should be able to find another person fairly easily, with all the people of both sexes looking for somebody to marry. With this same concept, it might even be fairly easy to find a girlfriend. However, it's not. Both of these can actually be really difficult.
I kind of wonder why that is. Almost everybody wants somebody else to be there for them. There's lots of people lonely out there and it seems like they should be able to find each other without too much difficulty. Then why are any people lonely and heartbroken when there are other people out there who feel the same way?
I think much of the problem may be due to high standards, maybe a little too high. A lot of us are trying not too settle for less than we think we can get. We often don't even test our compatibility with some people, since we've told ourselves it wouldn't work. Many set out on dates with this initial mindset, that they can't like the other person more than a friend and the date is just for fun. This results in a lot of pointless dates, because we're not looking at the other person as somebody that's even a candidate.
Back to the topic, I wonder if marriage would be quite as difficult if we just changed our attitude... if we went into every date looking at the other person as if they might be the one. That's really what dating is, isn't it? Maybe we should not go into anything with expectations, too low or too high, and just see how it goes. Maybe if we would stop waiting to find the right person and decide any person could be right for us, it'd be a lot easier... If, when we meet others, we treat them equally instead of based off whether or not that person seems datable. This is something I could do better with, as well, and I admit it's more difficult than it sounds.
I'm going to try to do better, though. I think, if we all made a little bit more effort to be open and give people chances, it'd make finding the right person for us a lot easier, as it would at least be a little less complicated than we might be making it.
One thing which was discussed a bit this time was the subject on marriage. Now, I don't really have that strong of an opinion on the subject. I'm not really all that close to getting married and don't feel too much need to hurry. Maybe that's wrong of me to feel that way. I don't know. Anyway, a lot of what was said was that we should be working to get married if we're at the right age, and it's not good if we're delaying it.
I've kind of thought about this a bit and have seen some discussion on the subject. I agree with some others that it seems so simple. It's like we should be able to find another person fairly easily, with all the people of both sexes looking for somebody to marry. With this same concept, it might even be fairly easy to find a girlfriend. However, it's not. Both of these can actually be really difficult.
I kind of wonder why that is. Almost everybody wants somebody else to be there for them. There's lots of people lonely out there and it seems like they should be able to find each other without too much difficulty. Then why are any people lonely and heartbroken when there are other people out there who feel the same way?
I think much of the problem may be due to high standards, maybe a little too high. A lot of us are trying not too settle for less than we think we can get. We often don't even test our compatibility with some people, since we've told ourselves it wouldn't work. Many set out on dates with this initial mindset, that they can't like the other person more than a friend and the date is just for fun. This results in a lot of pointless dates, because we're not looking at the other person as somebody that's even a candidate.
Back to the topic, I wonder if marriage would be quite as difficult if we just changed our attitude... if we went into every date looking at the other person as if they might be the one. That's really what dating is, isn't it? Maybe we should not go into anything with expectations, too low or too high, and just see how it goes. Maybe if we would stop waiting to find the right person and decide any person could be right for us, it'd be a lot easier... If, when we meet others, we treat them equally instead of based off whether or not that person seems datable. This is something I could do better with, as well, and I admit it's more difficult than it sounds.
I'm going to try to do better, though. I think, if we all made a little bit more effort to be open and give people chances, it'd make finding the right person for us a lot easier, as it would at least be a little less complicated than we might be making it.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Unwatchable
You know how there's some people who use certain words or phrases over and over? I had a friend in one of my classes who decided to count all the times one of the guys in the class said "like" while making a comment. I think it may have been over 10. I think there's a lot of people who do this.
Now, if you happen to be a person who doesn't mind watching R-rated movies, you'll often see a trend very similar. Just about every minute contains an F-bomb. If you think about how many times it's thrown out there for no particular reason, you may just start to realize how unwatchable it really is.
I'm not usually all that keen on watching these types of movies, but I will often overhear them, and it's really annoying. I honestly don't know how people could enjoy watching a movie which repeats one word so often. Why is this particular word okay to say repeatedly while any other word said with the same frequency would be ridiculous?
It's honestly not much different than teenagers who repeat the word "like" in nearly every sentence. People get to the point where they don't even realize one word is being repeated over and over. They don't care.
That's not me. I don't understand the appeal of swearing so often, and I don't think we have to watch this junk that Hollywood keeps pouring out. It's not good. Then again, people can and usually will do whatever they want.
Let's at least try and be a bit smarter with what we watch.
Now, if you happen to be a person who doesn't mind watching R-rated movies, you'll often see a trend very similar. Just about every minute contains an F-bomb. If you think about how many times it's thrown out there for no particular reason, you may just start to realize how unwatchable it really is.
I'm not usually all that keen on watching these types of movies, but I will often overhear them, and it's really annoying. I honestly don't know how people could enjoy watching a movie which repeats one word so often. Why is this particular word okay to say repeatedly while any other word said with the same frequency would be ridiculous?
It's honestly not much different than teenagers who repeat the word "like" in nearly every sentence. People get to the point where they don't even realize one word is being repeated over and over. They don't care.
That's not me. I don't understand the appeal of swearing so often, and I don't think we have to watch this junk that Hollywood keeps pouring out. It's not good. Then again, people can and usually will do whatever they want.
Let's at least try and be a bit smarter with what we watch.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
My Problem With Procrastination
Anybody who knows me will know that there is at least one thing I am terrible at: getting my work done earlier rather than later. Even right now, I'm stalling writing an essay and doing reading to write a blog post. You know it's bad when you're procrastinating to blog about your problem with procrastination. So, what do I do in these countless hours I spend avoiding obligations? Glad you asked. My 4 biggest most unimportant priorities include:
Facebook I don't even know why I get on that much anymore. My motivation to spend hours checking it should be all but gone. It's pretty much just become a habit now. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one with the problem, though. The site has pretty much become a national pandemic.
Sports I have an unhealthy addiction to following sports. I don't even really care what sport it is. If there's a team I like that's playing, I can tune out of obligations for hours at a time to watch. And it's not even limited to the TV, either! I constantly check news to make sure my teams are doing well and to read about what journalists are saying about them. Yeah, it's ridiculous. I not only watch and have my opinions about teams, but I spend a lot of time reading about what other people think! Sometimes, I wonder why we pay people to write about their opinions. It'd be nice to get paid for writing all this. Anybody want to sponsor me? No? Okay, whatever...
Music I enjoy music. I've enjoyed it for a long time, and I've played the trumpet for while. Yeah, it can be kind of boring to some people, but I like it.
Youtube Here's a great time waster! Anybody that has been there knows exactly what I'm talking about.
So, now that I've succeeded in wasting a lot more time...I'm done posting. See ya later!
Facebook I don't even know why I get on that much anymore. My motivation to spend hours checking it should be all but gone. It's pretty much just become a habit now. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one with the problem, though. The site has pretty much become a national pandemic.
Sports I have an unhealthy addiction to following sports. I don't even really care what sport it is. If there's a team I like that's playing, I can tune out of obligations for hours at a time to watch. And it's not even limited to the TV, either! I constantly check news to make sure my teams are doing well and to read about what journalists are saying about them. Yeah, it's ridiculous. I not only watch and have my opinions about teams, but I spend a lot of time reading about what other people think! Sometimes, I wonder why we pay people to write about their opinions. It'd be nice to get paid for writing all this. Anybody want to sponsor me? No? Okay, whatever...
Music I enjoy music. I've enjoyed it for a long time, and I've played the trumpet for while. Yeah, it can be kind of boring to some people, but I like it.
Youtube Here's a great time waster! Anybody that has been there knows exactly what I'm talking about.
So, now that I've succeeded in wasting a lot more time...I'm done posting. See ya later!
Thursday, March 10, 2011
The Seemingly Neverending Quest to Graduate
Today, I read through one of my friends' blogs, and remembered she will be graduating from school at the end of next year. She has a little over a year left, and then will be graduating. This was just a little depressing for me. I'm happy for her that she'll be graduating. It really is a great thing! However, she started school a year later than I did...and I'm not even close.
I really shouldn't have let this happen. When I started school, I thought it would only take about four years and then I'd be done. Then, I became a bit complacent, lost focus, even failed classes, and now I don't even know if I'll be done within the next three years. I am still a Sophomore in terms of credits, and I'm at the end of my third year at BYU. Then, there's Graduate School I will need to do right after if I'm to become a Counseling Psychologist like I am planning to be right now. So, it's likely I'll be in school still in five years.
How do you keep being enthusiastic about school when you're so far in...yet feel so far away from finishing?
It's similar to when you're running and there's a lot of people faster than you are. After 15 minutes, you look up in the distance and see the finish line, where people are already starting to cross it and celebrate. You get a feeling of happiness for a few seconds, almost celebrating yourself, only to remember you have a long way to go. It becomes much more of a struggle, because some of the people you began the race with are already finished. If you could have just gone faster, maybe you would be there right now. But, you're not...
Back to school, I really don't know how I will keep running or where to draw strength from. I always do and will manage. Still, it feels like I'm going so slow that a new race started while I was still running, and people are already close to finishing that one, as well.
It's so frustrating being at the point where I've fallen behind many of my friends. I don't want to see people graduate before me who I was a Freshman with, or who are younger than I am. That's so tough to watch.
At this point, it's good to remember that we never end up where we are without a reason. The Lord always has a plan for you and, as long as you keep doing what you're supposed to do, you'll end up right where you're supposed to be. I really believe that's true. So, for right now, I'll just renew my focus, continue running, while keeping a picture of the finish line fresh in my head. I'll be there soon enough, and not a moment too late.
I really shouldn't have let this happen. When I started school, I thought it would only take about four years and then I'd be done. Then, I became a bit complacent, lost focus, even failed classes, and now I don't even know if I'll be done within the next three years. I am still a Sophomore in terms of credits, and I'm at the end of my third year at BYU. Then, there's Graduate School I will need to do right after if I'm to become a Counseling Psychologist like I am planning to be right now. So, it's likely I'll be in school still in five years.
How do you keep being enthusiastic about school when you're so far in...yet feel so far away from finishing?
It's similar to when you're running and there's a lot of people faster than you are. After 15 minutes, you look up in the distance and see the finish line, where people are already starting to cross it and celebrate. You get a feeling of happiness for a few seconds, almost celebrating yourself, only to remember you have a long way to go. It becomes much more of a struggle, because some of the people you began the race with are already finished. If you could have just gone faster, maybe you would be there right now. But, you're not...
Back to school, I really don't know how I will keep running or where to draw strength from. I always do and will manage. Still, it feels like I'm going so slow that a new race started while I was still running, and people are already close to finishing that one, as well.
It's so frustrating being at the point where I've fallen behind many of my friends. I don't want to see people graduate before me who I was a Freshman with, or who are younger than I am. That's so tough to watch.
At this point, it's good to remember that we never end up where we are without a reason. The Lord always has a plan for you and, as long as you keep doing what you're supposed to do, you'll end up right where you're supposed to be. I really believe that's true. So, for right now, I'll just renew my focus, continue running, while keeping a picture of the finish line fresh in my head. I'll be there soon enough, and not a moment too late.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Friendly Wagers
I'm apparently not very good at gambling.
Last semester, my roommate Cole and I had a disagreement on a football game between the University of Utah and San Diego State. I really thought SDSU would win that one. However, I wasn't sure, so to convince me he gave me 2:1 odds. If I won, he'd give me six Krispy Kreme donuts, while I only had to pay up three if he won. So, without knowing what I was starting, I took the bet and lost.
Within a little while after, I still hadn't given the donuts, and we had another disagreement between who would win a game between the Philadelphia Eagles and Green Bay Packers. So, I put another 3 donuts on the line. If I won, I would no longer owe him anything but, if I lost, I would then owe him three in addition the the three I already owed. Of course, I lost again, and then I owed him half a dozen. It took some time for me to get them, but I eventually did, and was finally free of this debt...though I may have doubled it again if he agreed. Maybe I should have stopped there.
That didn't happen. Now, I'm a big Nuggets fan and Cole likes the Jazz. During one week when there was a game between the two, we made a wager for five dollars worth of Wendy's food to whoever's team won. I agreed to it, and hoped to win this time... which didn't happen. We went to get the food that night.
There has been one more bet since then. We made a bet at the end of one of the Nuggets games. This time, I either had to take out the trash or he had to drink three raw eggs. And I won! I felt kind of bad about Cole drinking raw eggs because of me, and it's probably not great for me to have reinforcement to keep these wagers going, but I did win one. The score is 3-1.
Last semester, my roommate Cole and I had a disagreement on a football game between the University of Utah and San Diego State. I really thought SDSU would win that one. However, I wasn't sure, so to convince me he gave me 2:1 odds. If I won, he'd give me six Krispy Kreme donuts, while I only had to pay up three if he won. So, without knowing what I was starting, I took the bet and lost.
Within a little while after, I still hadn't given the donuts, and we had another disagreement between who would win a game between the Philadelphia Eagles and Green Bay Packers. So, I put another 3 donuts on the line. If I won, I would no longer owe him anything but, if I lost, I would then owe him three in addition the the three I already owed. Of course, I lost again, and then I owed him half a dozen. It took some time for me to get them, but I eventually did, and was finally free of this debt...though I may have doubled it again if he agreed. Maybe I should have stopped there.
That didn't happen. Now, I'm a big Nuggets fan and Cole likes the Jazz. During one week when there was a game between the two, we made a wager for five dollars worth of Wendy's food to whoever's team won. I agreed to it, and hoped to win this time... which didn't happen. We went to get the food that night.
There has been one more bet since then. We made a bet at the end of one of the Nuggets games. This time, I either had to take out the trash or he had to drink three raw eggs. And I won! I felt kind of bad about Cole drinking raw eggs because of me, and it's probably not great for me to have reinforcement to keep these wagers going, but I did win one. The score is 3-1.
I think I am finally over her...and on with my life.
Saying this is really liberating. Tonight, I went back and read her blog, realized she had a boyfriend... and it doesn't really bother me too much. I'm actually happy for her now. It's not awkward for me anymore and I think I can finally move on. Things are over. I can say it and mean it now. There's been other girls I've liked and have had other experiences. She seems like such a distant part of my past now that I can look back and remember the fun times without being too sad. Some things just don't work out. Maybe you wish they did, but that's okay. I can accept it and be content.
Now, I really think I should work on moving out of this complex, getting away from some of the old memories, and making new ones. Hopefully, I can still keep in touch with some of the people from my old ward, though. Anyway, there's at least one girl who I think might like me right now, and I'd like to see if anything could go anywhere. It's hard to be sure of one of them, though, since girls often won't give strong enough hints so I know. Maybe I'm just not all that smart. One thing I wish is that they'd be less afraid to do something, since I'll often be the one to take initiative if I at least have a good idea that a girl's interested. Then again, I'm sometimes scared of breaking a girl's heart if things go that way. It's really stupid. I should probably be more worried about somebody else hurting me me, since most girls are way above my level. Why am I going on about this? Well, since you ask, it's because I have my own blog! And it's awesome. Haha. Yeah, so I don't even care. If people don't want to read, they don't have to. Haha.
There's a lot out there for me to experience. One thing I just need to figure out is how to sleep at night, since trouble sleeping is one thing I definitely have not gotten over yet. My life is looking like it can only get better, though!
Now, I really think I should work on moving out of this complex, getting away from some of the old memories, and making new ones. Hopefully, I can still keep in touch with some of the people from my old ward, though. Anyway, there's at least one girl who I think might like me right now, and I'd like to see if anything could go anywhere. It's hard to be sure of one of them, though, since girls often won't give strong enough hints so I know. Maybe I'm just not all that smart. One thing I wish is that they'd be less afraid to do something, since I'll often be the one to take initiative if I at least have a good idea that a girl's interested. Then again, I'm sometimes scared of breaking a girl's heart if things go that way. It's really stupid. I should probably be more worried about somebody else hurting me me, since most girls are way above my level. Why am I going on about this? Well, since you ask, it's because I have my own blog! And it's awesome. Haha. Yeah, so I don't even care. If people don't want to read, they don't have to. Haha.
There's a lot out there for me to experience. One thing I just need to figure out is how to sleep at night, since trouble sleeping is one thing I definitely have not gotten over yet. My life is looking like it can only get better, though!
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