Facebook Status Updates

I believe it was during a cruise in the Caribbean that I realized something. While walking on the deck, an interesting thought entered my mind: I began thinking in terms of what my Facebook status would be at the moment. I was even thinking in third person, such as"Derek Chandler is..." That was kind of weird. However, I've realized that I actually do a lot, and that may have not even been the first time. It seems like I'm constantly thinking in terms of my Facebook status now. When I'm angry, I might sometimes actually think the words, "is angry" (since, of course, you don't have to type out your name) instead of just thinking "I'm really angry." I can't be the only one that does this. I guess maybe I am way too into Facebook if this is happening. haha. Maybe I should cut back. Oh well...

Pedrestians and Driving

Today, I was waiting for to cross the street while cars were passing and a thought came to my mind: "Why don't I just cross, anyway?" I get that feeling sometimes. I feel like Moses crossing the Red Sea. If I feel like crossing the street without waiting for cars, I might just do it, since they will usually stop for you if they're far enough away. When I'm driving, though, pedestrians seems more like ants going wherever they want, without any consideration for drivers. It sometimes makes me really angry and think about just running them over and going on with my drive...but that would clearly not be the right thing to do. Haha. Yeah, sometimes, crazy stuff runs through my mind, and I tend to think differently depending on whether I travel by car or foot.

Jobless

Last night, I was up until the early hours of the morning finishing up a couple of essays. When I finally woke up, I was already late for work. After riding my bike over there, my boss met me and said he was going to have to let me go. He said it was because I was consistently late and too slow at my work, that it didn't seem like I was thinking about being there, and he couldn't have it. Now, I really don't know what to do. I am really down from this. I need to have some consistent income, but I can't seem to wake up early in the morning consistently, which has been hurting me the last few years in both school and work. This is really tough to handle. I have not had such a great start to this week.

Coming From Behind

This semester has been really difficult on me. Working while attending classes has made me really tired. I'm now behind in all my classes and have to find some time to catch up. It's really stressful and I don't know how to manage all of it. Just for the rest of today, I still need to write two essays and finish my Biology homework. This weekend's reading will probably have to go unfinished. I didn't realize how difficult managing things would be with both work and school, and I can't afford to fail since I wouldn't qualify for Financial Aid next semester. I have not gotten too stressed out in a long time, but now things are really starting to grind on me. From now on, I need to work even harder, since there is little room for error. The fun is over and the real work is just beginning.

Sleep...

This is something I've had possibly the most trouble getting caught up on during the start of the semester. Last week, I probably was able to get an average of 4 or 5 hours of sleep every night on school night, which made me really tired. Last night, I slept about 4 hours. It's making me really tired, so I need to manage my time better, or it could be rough trying to get through the next few weeks. Sleeping well has been something I've struggled with nearly my entire life, and it seems like thoughts are constantly going through my head at night. It's not easy for me to deal with but, at least for right now, keeping busy has usually helped me to be tired enough for sleeping by the time I get in bed. Maybe the tiring workload will help this issue. Aside from all else, I plan on getting to bed on time tonight, and expect tomorrow to be better after having more rest.

Disorders

I have a fairly strong opinion on some things that I really don't agree with. One of these is the concept of psychological disorders. There's a lot of them: Bipolar Disorder, Attention Deficit Disorder, Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder... The list is fairly lengthy. That is part of the problem.

I've had a lot of good friends who have very interesting personalities. Several are diagnosed with different "disorders" such as those I listed above. Besides my friends, I have thought about what other disorders some of the people I have met possibly have. In fact, there's not a whole lot of people who I would say don't have some sort of a disorder that might affect them. This bothers me.

Disorders are supposed to be something that makes people different from others and affects them in ways that are not normal. However, it has come to the point where this no longer seems true. There's a lot of people that supposedly have some kind of disorder. I would say there are enough people who have one that it's not even accurate to call it a disorder. When so many people are affected by these, can it really be called a disorder? Nearly every person can qualify as having one. In my opinion, they shouldn't be called by this name at all, since it makes people feel like they are different than everybody else, when they are not really much different than the hordes of people out there who also have some type of disorder. Psychological disorders have become the norm for average people, so it's time that title be done away with, and they should simply be seen as elements of personalities.

Broken Hearts Are Like Broken Bones

They come with great pain and need time to mend. However, when finally healed, they will be stronger than ever before and have the ability to withstand greater stress. Just something to think about...