Friendly Wagers

I'm apparently not very good at gambling.

Last semester, my roommate Cole and I had a disagreement on a football game between the University of Utah and San Diego State. I really thought SDSU would win that one. However, I wasn't sure, so to convince me he gave me 2:1 odds. If I won, he'd give me six Krispy Kreme donuts, while I only had to pay up three if he won. So, without knowing what I was starting, I took the bet and lost.

Within a little while after, I still hadn't given the donuts, and we had another disagreement between who would win a game between the Philadelphia Eagles and Green Bay Packers. So, I put another 3 donuts on the line. If I won, I would no longer owe him anything but, if I lost, I would then owe him three in addition the the three I already owed. Of course, I lost again, and then I owed him half a dozen. It took some time for me to get them, but I eventually did, and was finally free of this debt...though I may have doubled it again if he agreed. Maybe I should have stopped there.

That didn't happen. Now, I'm a big Nuggets fan and Cole likes the Jazz. During one week when there was a game between the two, we made a wager for five dollars worth of Wendy's food to whoever's team won. I agreed to it, and hoped to win this time... which didn't happen. We went to get the food that night.

There has been one more bet since then. We made a bet at the end of one of the Nuggets games. This time, I either had to take out the trash or he had to drink three raw eggs. And I won! I felt kind of bad about Cole drinking raw eggs because of me, and it's probably not great for me to have reinforcement to keep these wagers going, but I did win one. The score is 3-1.

I think I am finally over her...and on with my life.

Saying this is really liberating. Tonight, I went back and read her blog, realized she had a boyfriend... and it doesn't really bother me too much. I'm actually happy for her now. It's not awkward for me anymore and I think I can finally move on. Things are over. I can say it and mean it now. There's been other girls I've liked and have had other experiences. She seems like such a distant part of my past now that I can look back and remember the fun times without being too sad. Some things just don't work out. Maybe you wish they did, but that's okay. I can accept it and be content.

Now, I really think I should work on moving out of this complex, getting away from some of the old memories, and making new ones. Hopefully, I can still keep in touch with some of the people from my old ward, though. Anyway, there's at least one girl who I think might like me right now, and I'd like to see if anything could go anywhere. It's hard to be sure of one of them, though, since girls often won't give strong enough hints so I know. Maybe I'm just not all that smart. One thing I wish is that they'd be less afraid to do something, since I'll often be the one to take initiative if I at least have a good idea that a girl's interested. Then again, I'm sometimes scared of breaking a girl's heart if things go that way. It's really stupid. I should probably be more worried about somebody else hurting me me, since most girls are way above my level. Why am I going on about this? Well, since you ask, it's because I have my own blog! And it's awesome. Haha. Yeah, so I don't even care. If people don't want to read, they don't have to. Haha.

There's a lot out there for me to experience. One thing I just need to figure out is how to sleep at night, since trouble sleeping is one thing I definitely have not gotten over yet. My life is looking like it can only get better, though!